Endministrator's fears and worries

I started the Laevatain side story expecting it to be mostly about her character and past. Some sort of introduction of her character to the story (as she doesn't appear in the main narrative so far), but turns out it's really a side story focused on the protagonist Endmin so far (1 hour-ish in). It seems like the courageous and perfect character we've seen in the main story was just her acting strong to not disappoint all the people that were putting trust into her. Be it Perlica, Chen or the various other characters of Valley IV that fully trusted her despite her having no memories about why.
There are strong parallels between Laevatain and Endmin because both of them lack memories of their past and both are searching for them which makes them resonate as kindred spirits.

I can totally understand her fears and worries surfacing as visions in this special dimension. "What if what I do is wrong compared to what the old Endmin would do?" "What if I don't manage to reach the level of expectations that they have in me?"
I don't know if the visions that we've seen so far of Endmin's past are real or purely a materialization of his worries, but they were quite scary so much her personality was different. She seemed more of a dictator dominating other people than a savior trying to save them.

But then again, everyone else praising us so much in the main story already made me extremely suspicious of their motives. Perlica especially as she seems to be the most "devoted" to Endmin, but doesn't seem to want to elaborate about their past together.

I plan on doing a post on the main blog about the side stories as a whole once I finish all three side stories so stay tuned for it.